Nov 2016

Surgery - More Prep

T – 8 Days

I’ve been making sure that I’ve got everything checked off my list.

I’m able to log into work from home, in case recovery takes longer than expected.

I’ve talked to someone that has a lift chair and they are going to let me borrow it. This is great, because though someone donated a recliner to me, if I can get a lift chair, it’s going to make recovery much easier.

I went and bought compression socks today and went onto amazon and bought me a hat since I won’t be washing my hair and I’ll have people coming over to sit with me.

The husband of my husband’s girlfriend offered me to movies from his collection. He has over 1100 movies. I chose about 8 movies.

A friend is bringing over a table tray leftover from her recovery after a serious car accident.

What’s left?

Grocery shopping and preparing meals. …..and buying a Christmas Tree. And a few other things i mentioned in the last blog entry.

If so, I’ll be getting those done soon. I plan on grocery shopping tonight after my boyfriend leaves.

Then, it’s just waiting and making some youtube videos leading up to the surgery.

And….getting used to the idea of having a smaller middle.

I was sitting in the recliner this morning, looked down, saw how my ‘hips’ meet the sides of the chair. I lift up my nightgown and grab the folds. I pulled them into the middle of my stomach and see how much room there is between me and the sides of the chair. All of that is supposedly going to be gone when I wake up after surgery next Thursday. It’s a weird feeling. That’s part of my body. And it’s going to be cut off. What a weird concept.

When I thought I was going to have a hysterectomy a couple of years back, I cried and cried because they were going to have to cut out part of my body. ….Now there is no crying. It’s sort of surreal to see my belly and know it’s going to be different in a week.

All I have to do now, is to not think about the 6 hours of surgery. 

Surgery Prep

I’m continuing to put things in place for the surgery. I have someone bringing me a mobile bedside table and I’m setting people up to come keep an eye on me once Dan goes back to work.
And someone at work just shared something with me. I have a fear of dropping my phone on the floor and not being able to call anyone while I’m stuck in the chair. I won’t be able to bend over to get it. Well, when I expressed this, she told me about a product called a gopher. It’s a reacher thingie with suction cups on it. What a great idea! I just went to amazon and ordered one. So there is another fear taken care of. And I’ve got people stopping by the first couple of days after Dan goes to work.

And I’ve also created a packing list for my hospital stay. Plus, yesterday I bought some sweatpants to come home from the hospital in. Problem is, I have no idea what size I’ll be. Plus, I’ll have the drains in. So, do I buy big pants or pants that I won’t have to worry about them falling down? Well, what I did was bought a bigger size than what I wear now, and made sure they have drawstrings. That way I can tie them on. But, honestly, I’m also thinking of just wearing a dress with leg warmers home from the hospital. I’m packing both.
So, left to do:

Pack overnight bag
Get table from Stephanie
Set up table next to recliner
Set up charging station next to recliner
Get Walker and wedge cushions from Trina
Prep freezer meals
Prep breakfasts and lunches
Figure out how to log into work from home
Prep Dan’s morning pills

Since it’s also the holiday season, I need to think about getting the Christmas Tree this weekend, and shopping for gifts. Though, I usually do most of my shopping through Amazon, so I can actually wait on that. 

Surgery reflections

Not exactly sure where I’m going to put this journaling about my surgery just yet, but I definitely need to journal. I want to do another youtube video as well, before surgery.

So, Belt Lipectomy.

10 days until surgery on Dec. 8
th. 10 days.

Just a couple of days ago, it was 2 weeks. Now it’s 10 days. And honestly, it’s a little scary. I’ve been able to play it off like it’s nothing, emotionally……even though logically I know it’s a big deal. Then, my husband admitted to me that he realized it was a big deal. And the fact that it’s happening next week. I’m lining people up to stop in and check on me. It’s going to happen.

There are little things to think about. I won’t be able to sit on my meditation cushion for weeks if not months. Getting out of this recliner may or may not work. I joke about watching Netflix and have a list of shows and movies, but in reality I’ll probably sleep the first week and hope I don’t get stuck in this chair.

Going to the bathroom isa big concern for me. I won’t have someone home to help out. What if I can’t sit on the toilet? Well, I thought of that answer yesterday. We have a walk in shower. If all I have to do is pee, I can walk into the shower to do so. No bending required. Then, I’ll have a towel to sit on or a chuck on my chair.

I’m hoping I’m like some of the girls on youtube that are up and moving in a couple of days. But, in all reality, I’ll probably be like the ones that are down and out for a couple of weeks. Though, I don’t want to make that happen by thinking about it too hard.

As I pulled on my leggings up and over my belly this morning, I realized I’m just ready to have it gone.

A very wise person (Mike Conley), told me that it’s my last connection to the past. That made me cry. That’s truer than even he may know.