Frustrated

Foot Stompy

I wrote this over a month ago…..wait …almost 2 months ago….but it still applies


I’ve been having a real hard time lately.
 
2 things….one I can put on my blog and one that I can’t because the men in my life might read it and I don’t want it to be taken passive aggressively.
 
The one I can blog about is about my weight loss. Only a few more pounds to go to reach a long time goal. Yet, for some reason it’s taking forever to lose this last couple of pounds. Then, I come across 3 different peoples facebooks and it frustrates me. 2 had the surgery and 1 is on a liquid diet. Now, the one on a liquid diet, kudos. She could have easily been a candidate for the surgery but decided to take a different route. She’s lost over 140 pounds in less than a year.

But, the other 2. One definitely needed it for her health. The other, not so much. Doesn’t matter. It’s taken me over 8 years of hard work and psychological struggle to get this 90 some pounds off….and I’m watching them melt away in a matter of months. No exercise. Poof. Or at least that’s what it looks like from my vantage point.



tantrum

It’s not feeling fair. Why did it take me so long? I don’t begrudge them…..but doing it the hard way, is hard! Changing my foods, exercise, always having to set new goals. Struggle, struggle for many, many years.

I’m feeling very foot stompy and almost wishing that I’d done the surgery. All this missed time of me being stubborn and wanting to do things on my own instead of taking short cuts. Was it worth it? I don’t know.
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