Name chosen

I was reading and reading, checking out sanskrit, pali and summerian words. When i left off a couple of days ago, my search screens were open to parvati. i love the concept of parvati, submissive to her godly husband but also his rock. So, i started digging and came up with about 20 more words.

But, one that really jumped out at me was ‘

It could be partly due to the fact that i’ve been reading the ‘Dark Tower’ by Stephen King and there is a song in there about ‘Kamala’, though i did find out that they spell it ‘Camala’. i like the ‘K’ spelling of it though.

And the more i researched her, the more i liked what i read. i also couldn’t believe that i have come across her name before in the book ‘Siddhartha’. And after re-reading that chapter, i can see why her name and archetypal energy really speak to me.


Here is what i’ve put together, the pieces that speak to me and that i’ll embrace by taking on her name:

- Hindu Goddess who manages spirituality, love, passion, pleasure, relationships, self-love and sexuality.

- Symbolizes good humor, optimism, confidence, clear-thinking, wide horizons, wisdom, spontaneity, and authenticity

- Courtesan that taught Siddhartha the ways of love-making

- Siddharthas strength is equaled by the strength of her love

- Siddhartha is admiring and authoritative at the same time

- Kamala equals the ‘Lotus Goddess of Delight’

- Kamala is a form of Shakti energy

- Kamala is seen as part of Parvati

- Parvati is seen as the submissive, obedient wife and helpmate of Shiva, the shakta’s see her as his equal with different strengths

- Parvati’s story with Shiva is about merging with the Divine

- Each of Parvati’s manifested forms (of which Kamala is one) made Shiva realize essential truths, made him aware of the truth of their eternal love

- Kamala is also seen as another version of Lakshmi, though unlike Lashmi she isn’t associated with normal wifely or social norms

- Kamala is one of the 10 Wisdom Goddess. A very power goddess in her own right, able to stand on her own.

- It is their power that pervades the Gods, and enables them to perform their cosmic functions

- The Gods support the Mahavidyas (Wisdom Goddesses)

- Kamala is the pure creative force, the power to create beauty and wealth around us, and to see the beauty in everything.

- She is a powerful Tantric Goddess.

- Kamala teaches us that when we commit ourselves to the spiritual path, as we move farther along we begin to see beauty all around us

- Kamala is of spiritual progress. With her help, we learn to drop the drama of everyday life, and release the bitterness towards those that have harmed us or bruised our egos

- She helps us see the god/dess in everything and everyone

- She is the spirit of nature itself, and is manifest in the natural world.

- By recognizing her beauty in the natural world all around us, we also move further down the path of the sadhaka, the spiritual practitioner who communes with God in every moment, and offers every action to the Divine Mother as worship, remaining detached from the fruits of action and enjoying the acts of service, generosity and prayer for their own sake.

- She is the spirit of giving, not of taking. She is the spirit of receiving graciously and gratefully, not of greed.

- Kamala as lotus goddess also represents developement of the person by maintaining the dharma of keeping the seven chakras open.

- She is very sattvic like Venus or Aphrodite

- She is the Light Goddess and likes fine and sattvic things and actions like charity.

- She gives peace, prosperity and pleasure, and moksha.

- In epistemological and psychological sense, moksha connotes freedom, self-realization and self-knowledge.

The Hindu ‘lotus girl’ of pleasure promotes ongoing faithfulness in our relationships inspired by mutual enjoyment and an abundance of love.

- Kamala also makes us aware of the spiritual dimensions in our physical exchanges that sometimes get overlooked.


Symbols - lotus, yellow objects

We can workshop Kamala simply by spending time in nature and appreciating its profound beauty, and also by beings stewards of the earth.

Anything that includes cinnamon, garlic or saffron is a good alternative choice, as these items bear Kamala’s lusty energy.

To improve your ability to give and receive love, including self-love, wear yellow-colored clothing today, especially an item that is worn near the heart chakra (a blouse, shirt, tie, bra or perhaps a gold necklace or tie back). As you don that item, say,

‘Let pleasure flow freely from my heart;
Kamala, abide there - your love impart.’

Wear this piece of clothing or jewelry again anytime you enact spells or rituals focused on sexuality or relationships.

** the trick is to remember to embrace her name as a verb, instead of a noun **


What's in a name? (pt 2)


As I was meditating this morning, I looked up, saw my phoenix print that Master had made for me, on my altar. It matches the tattoo on my back. Funny thing is, when I saw the print, I also saw my face in place of its face, and me wearing the wings. With that, more words started floating through my head as potential names for me.

Dawn Thunderbird




Turtle (Strength)


Flaming Wings



Fire Dancer




What's in a name?


Recently, I’ve been challenged to come up with a new name. Master has created a new facebook account under a new name, and if I want to continue to have my vanilla facebook page be vanilla, so that I can keep in contact with family…I need to come up with a new name as well. This will also make it possible for people to tag me along with his new name. And I’ll be able to join some of the groups that I’ve put off from joining with my vanilla account.
I’m having 2 problems with coming up with a name. First of all, I’ve already been through this challenge. It was back in 2002 or so and took a lot of meditation and journeys to come up with Earthsong. I can’t use that for a facebook name where I can join the groups I want to join, because that name is attached to the clergy work I do. I have other names, but Master doesn’t want me to use the other 2 that attach me to Him. Dansarani and belet dawn. Even though both of them are perfect for me, which is why I keep them. Though, I totally understand His reasoning and am glad that He voiced it.
So, what name would mean ‘dawn completely’? A name that would include my priestess, slave, poly, spiritual, Leather, Bodhisatva, Buddhist flavored, healer, survivor, witch, muse, qadishtu, ethical, loyal, expansive, lovingcompl and sexual self? I’ve thought of a couple of things. He’s helped me with a couple of ideas. But, nothing seems to fit.
Dawn Completely
Dawn Qadishtu
Surprisingly, Qadishtu doesn’t show up in any Sumerian list of words that I can find. But, the following do….and they are kind of descriptive of me:
Danuum – strong
Melammu –  bright - awe= inspiring luminosity (sounds egotistical, but the message from my guided meditation says I should be looking at this)
Guruvash – servant
Ki or gi – earth
Yyr – song
Girru – fire
Ilati – Goddess
Arammu – love
Nabu – seer
Mudi – oracle reader
Gibil – one of fire
Bau – healer
Kwin Yin
Samani (pali) – priestess
Anunam (pali) – completely
Abhinibbatta – reborn
Pujaniya – sacred
Ana (Sumerian) – for the purpose of
Rajaseva (pali) - service
Seva (pali) – service
Sarasvati – Hindu muse (illumination)
Parvati – give up what she desired most to help someone in need, submissive wife
So far, I’m liking…….
Dawn SevaSamani   (Dawn Service Priestess)
Dawn Melammu  (Dawn Inspiring luminosity)
Dawn Anunam (Dawn completely)

Dawn SevaSamaniMelammu (service priestess inspiring luminosity)