Spirit guide

Reiki and Darkness

During a recent Reiki Share that I hosted at the Columbus Insight Center, one of the attendees ended up seeing visions with each of the people that climbed up on the massage table to receive Reiki. Each of us there were at least level 1 Reiki attuned, and were practicing on each other. Reiki practitioners don’t usually get to receive Reiki, only give to those needing us. So, a Reiki Share is a good time to just lay back and receive.

This attendee shared with most everyone what her visions were, while we were sitting around at the end of the evening just relaxing. They were all pretty positive and left the girls smiling. She didn’t share one with me, and I didn’t really notice it until later when I read an email from her.

It doesn’t surprise me when people can’t read me. My walls are usually up nice and tight. Though, one of the girls did say that she could tell when some blockages brock up with me because she could feel me physically relax. I remember those moment as well.

It was a great group of people that night, though none of my regulars were there, and I didn’t know any of the attendees this time around. I’m glad I didn’t cancel the evening like I had thought about.

Here is the email I received from the girl:

Thanks for hosting the Reiki share tonight. It was a really positive experience for me, and I hope it was for all. I had a reading for you, too, but I felt it was better to tell you in private. 

First of all, I love your energy! It was amazing all of the masters, guides, and angels you had around you, too; there were at least 100 who revealed themselves to me when I asked for their presence. Your body and inner auras were very clear and bright. All I could do was send even more love. 

The only negative I found was around your aura about 3ft out from your back, or however high the table was; it skirted the ground. There was this shell of earth that covered the perimeter, almost like it was caked to it. When I tried to clear it, I found a pit of "evil things"--peering eyes and imps and such. They cleared very quickly, so it was not an issue. I'm sure with your spiritual background, you're probably aware that the brighter we are, the more we attract. I just felt like Spirit wanted to remind you to stay vigilant; I'm sure you do. 

Now when I think about it, I wonder if I should have tried to remove the earth at all. Sorry if I messed with anything I shouldn't have. I got my attunements rather quickly, and I've only been in practice for less than three years. 

My response to her:

It doesn't surprise me that found a spot at my back. This is where i work the most to remove cords that attach to me. The person that attaches.....I don't know that he's even aware that he does so.....but he had attempted to feed from me since i was a child. I have not been able to create a wall thick enough to keep the cord from reattaching every now and then. I've burnt it with my golden dragon familiar and have had it cut with the sword of Archangel Michael. Over time, it will return. Maybe the earth was a way for Mother Earth to help me out. i don't know. It might be time to burn it again. 

How perceptive of her. A little too close to the mark, which is another reason I keep my walls up.
What I didn’t tell her is that the leech that tries to attach to my back is my main abuser when I was a child. I can feel him thinking about me and that re-creates the cord attachment. When I can feel him, is when I put together a ritual to burn the cord. It doesn’t surprise me that there are creatures of darkness along the lines of that chord. They are probably waiting for it to re-attach so that they can feed off of my fear and pain from the memories.

I’m kind of wishing she hadn’t removed the earth covering it. That was probably part of the protection that my spirit guides put into place and I’m probably going to need all the protection I can muster over the next couple of days.

For some reason, I said ‘yes’ to a PTSD study at OSU. It starts tonight. What was I thinking? Probably that I’m stronger than I think I am. But, what if I’m not? Only time will tell.