Trust and Vulnerability

This is from one of my writings in May, that didn’t make it to my blog. It was still sitting in my email as a reminder to post to the blog.



People sharing their vulnerabilities is such a turn on. I’ve heard someone say this before, and I get it, but now I really get it. I’ve had 3 different people tell me things about themselves recently: things that they wouldn’t admit to others. 1 of them shared something that was super deep and then was afraid that they had scared me away. Nope, not possible so far. Instead, it made me love them all the more.
Why? Well, to show a vulnerable side, and really show it, involves trust. Especially when they’ve shown that side before and been shunned or felt shame. My desire, is trust. I want to be trusted and I want to trust the other person. That is how I can tap into anything from friendship to a deep passion. I would love to give details of the story I was told, but it’s just too personal, and not my story to tell.

I don’t trust easy. My past abuse leaves me to not trusting anyone. You have to earn my trust. I forget that it’s like that with other people as well. So, the fact that I’ve earned their trust makes me feel full. I hadn’t thought of that before. I feel like I’m a trustworthy person, but do I go out of my way to earn others trust? My husbands. That’s about it. I don’t lie, cheat or steal and I’m good at keeping secrets, but do I go out of my way to earn trust? I’ll have to think about that one.